Confusion

Words spinning around me.
I can't capture them,
because every time I touch them
they slide out of my hands.

Sadness, Joy, Loneliness.
I'm feeling all of these three
at the same time.
Fear, Sorrow, Hope.
They are switching every second.
I don't understand,
what I'm feeling right now.

And still, there are so many questions
that are tormenting me.
Do I miss her, or do I not miss her?
Can I really trust him?
Are those emotions I feel real?
As I try to answer one of them
the question fades away
like if something pulled it out of my mind.

Scared, I look around.
Knowing, that there is no one here
to get me out of this nightmare
like they got me out before.

Slowly, my tears fall down
since I know that there is no one
who will prevent me of crying,
or dry my tears.

Everything is so different
like it was before.
So strange, so different
just so confusing.