Tsuki-Shimizu

Although I don't feel it yet it still exists The one who gave it to me wanted to save me from it. She only wanted me to be happy but at the place where she has been is now empty and all that remains there is a scar. Something she never wanted to give me. I can't count the times the sun rose again since I lost her. Maybe this scar would just vanish but I can't forget. And time heals no wounds.

~ Am I still dreaming? ~ I wake up, the same as every day and in front of me I hear someone say "Good morning my love" Her sweet smile shining on me from above. Your smile is all I need. I crave for you so much, not having you makes me bleed. Our lips briefly touch Loving you forever is my creed. I smile at you and wrap my arms around. You keep on giggling, what an angelic sound. ~ Is this really reality? ~ Your loveable fragrance has become my essence. And having you by my side makes me smile, my wonderful bride. I think how beautiful this could be because for being happy you are my key. But my thoughts are cloudy like steam and I kno

Time is surely strange Sometimes it passes by so fast we want to stop it and sometimes it feels like it barely passes at all. When I can meet you again the time passes by like in a minute. and until I can meet you again it seems like I have to wait for years. But now it's nearly time again and I can hold you in my arms again. We can hold hands and hug each other even if the time is short. When I have to let you go I want to hug you again and be with you longer. Just "one more minute".

It began as I slowly raise my head I remember the days, when I was wandering around in the deepest darkness and asked myself, it is a way or if I should keep going it. When I was thinking about being at the sea happy, without worrying about anything. Until I asked myself, what this simple word a word that everyone knows, that everyone uses, what love really means. From that point on, I started walking out of the darkness I was wandering in. And I began to see the light again, and to realize, how much I miss you. Even if I struggled, I kept going on. No matter how hurt I was, I was walking on, for my heart. And even if it w

I still remember that day. That fateful day, you told me, that you love me. And after that, I remember that day, when I asked you to become my girlfriend. That day, that lies 621 days in the past, when we both dreamed of a happy future, that can now never become real. We both were happy, just by having each other, and be able to talk with each other. During those days, I wasn't able to talk to you over the half of the time. I didn't care about that nor about the fact, that we were never able to see each other or just hold each other's hand. Thinking about it, I must have been a very bad boyfriend for you, but if I ever said

There is one question in my mind that I don't have an answer for. It's the simple question who I am. I'm a small soul wandering around in this world of darkness. Only going forward to find the light. I'm just hiding behind words, that let me forget the world for some minutes, I flee into daydreams into other worlds, that I created within my mind so I don't have to face reality. I daydream, of a better world a world I'm to afraid to face. I'm just looking in the past, and thinking about the idiot I was. Only writing down those words afraid of everything that might happened and that maybe already has happened. Truth, Li

As I open my eyes, there's nothing but darkness around me. It's inside this little room of mine. It's even inside of my heart. Even if I open the door and try to run away, it will still get me. I can't flee from it, since it will be always with me. I've got nowhere to go, nowhere to feel alive. My body is shivering from the fear. I can't even cry, since I shed all of my tears a long long time ago. And my mind is telling me, that I just should give up. But this cold darkness inside this room, inside my mind feels warm compared to the cold, that would come back to me if you are gone. I try, but I still can't count th

In every soul there's a small white path that we call 'sanity'. Just beside this sanity there's a dark sea. When we take one step into this sea our soul gets embraced by darkness and becomes blind. This sea is 'insanity'. sometimes this path of sanity gets broader and sometimes smaller. But we still try, no matter how small the path is, to walk on in sanity. But within some souls this path of sanity doesn't exist anymore. So we have to walk in insanity and sink in, deeper and deeper into the dark sea of madness. We have no chance to get out by our self anymore, and can only hope, to meet another soul. Another soul, that

Up to now, I've never realized how much scars I got in the past. But now I realize, that there were so many of them that I nearly collapsed. Today, there are less scars on my soul, since you healed them. You may have torn up new wounds but you have healed me much more than you hurt me. And in my mind, there is one thing I want to say to you: 'Thanks'.

And again, I'm thinking, what I could give you. A present from me to you. Because today is christmas, the day, when everyone should be with the ones who are precious to him. With his family, his friend, the girl or the boy he or she loves. But we are still separated, and our eyes have never met. We don't know, how it feels if you are with the person you love. We only can imagine, how it could feel - a bright, warm feeling, that won't fade. But instead we're feeling cold, like we were sitting lonely outside in the snow. And still I'm asking myself what I could give you - something good enough to give it to you as a present, but that i